[quote name=\'TLEberle\' post=\'247592\' date=\'Sep 15 2010, 01:41 AM\']Not your beliefs. Your behavior.[/quote]
I'm sorry, but I can't help it if I have behavior problems. Behavior issues are normal for persons with autism. Autistic persons cannot become non-autistic persons overnight. It's a developmental disability that alters my brain, and my way of thinking is a lot different than that of a normal person. A lot of persons with autism post here quite frequently, and a lot of them are not banned. Why is that? Because their brains function better than that of mine.
Autism also involves obsessions - some of them can become addictions. I had my share of addictions during my youth - including
Sesame Street, certain content in
Richie Rich comics, select cartoons back in the 1980s, and some game shows. Although many of those obsessions are no longer a part of my life, the magnitude of the surviving obsessions have strengthened greatly.
And autism involves lack of judgment. Autistic persons tend to perceive things quite differently and that is why those kind of people (including I) tend to post things based on belief and not fact. In fact, I do admit I never do watch the news on TV. Why? Because to me, I have obsessions supersede greatly over the news. The news is one hour out of my day that takes a chunk out of my time off work.
I also don't have an interest in reading books and/or novels. Reason? Because books lack color and images, not to mention I have a very limited vocabulary. While my vocabulary has broadened in the last decade, it only broadened because they were synonyms for words that I learned in kindergarten and first or second grade. I never did have an interest in learning new things because "obsessions" got in the way, and I do admit I have had at least one or two obsessions since I was about 3 years old.
Images and color are what attract me to potential new interests. I cannot approach new interests like a normal person can - I can only "catch" new interests like a virus, and instantly. This is why I got into
Press Your Luck when I first saw it in September 1984. It was a new interest that I "caught" like a virus in a heartbeat, and I watched it religiously. Same for Sesame Street back in the 1970s - again, a case of colors and classic animation are what attracted me to the show and remained an obsessive desire until my mother banned it in October 1984. I tend to live on obsessions. If all of my obsessions disappear out of my life completely, I will likely end up in a melancholy state (not to the extent of crying) with nothing to do.
Autism also involves repetition. My brain tends to rely heavily on repetition for decades now. That's likely an effect of limited interests. Those limited interests can cause people like me to "eat, sleep, and think" about those narrow interests. I am unable to broaden my interests because of the way my brain tends to rely heavily on vision as the key sense to determine if certain things qualify as a new interest. In fact, I have developed only one new interest since 1995 (it was developed in 2007, oddly enough) - and needless to say, it became an obsession.
I recommend for you to take a bit of time to read this article about autism, so that people would be more understanding of the nature of the disability:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/AutismBy reading this article, you will have a more thorough understanding and you will learn that persons with my disability cannot function like a normal person can, and likely never will. And you will learn that there should be allowances made for persons with my disability.
BTW, if I am posting based on my beliefs and perception, are forums not recommended for me?
